(No) Moar dots!
Well I am very sorry to say that it is finally time for me to hang up my raiding boots. I couldn't tell you in raid or on Vent because a) I am a big girl and will cry and b) I didn't want to put a dampner on your raid. I am trying to to do this in the nicest way possible, I don't want to fall out over this.
My performance in raid is beyond awful considering my gear and I just cannot justify holding you lot back in a raid which we are trying to progress in.
I am not just going to leave you in the lurch. I will continue to attend raids as much as possible until you once again have a team of at least 10 but until then I will try and sub myself out on the more challenging fights just to give you guys a chance.
Don't worry, I am not leaving the guild, and I will still be leading it. I will still be around and will definitely pop into the easier raids with you guys, if of course you will still have me.
It is not simply my lack of DPS which has led to this. As recent raids have probably shown, my mind is not entirely focussed on the raid during raid times. Work is really busy at the moment and more often than not I am struggling to get home and sort myself out in time to raid, meaning that I am not in the progression mindset I should be, and it is not fair on you guys.
It has been a fun 4 (maybe even 5, I lost count long ago) years raiding with Awesome and I don't honestly think I am really leaving as I will always jump at the chance to come and raid with you. I just cannot commit to the 3 nights a week that is currently required, or pull the DPS required. You never know, a few months down the line I may reappear with a new main and a refreshed raid ready mind.
I have not decided who will be taking over the team. I need to have a chat with a few people and see what happens. I will keep you all informed though. Again, I will not officially be leaving until I know that the team is stable enough to continue, the last thing I want is to leave you all in a position where you cannot raid at all as you don't have the numbers.
I will miss you all, some of you have been in Awesome longer than me and despite the ups and downs we always had fun and we achieved alot on the way. Chances are, this is not my final goodbye, I will probably be back, but I doubt as raid leader, those boots are just too big for me to fill.